I've been thinking...

about starting this blog for a long time now. The thing is... that picture above is me. It's me now but it's not who I really am. Just 3 years ago I was 100 pounds lighter. Actually I gained that 100 pounds in let than a year in a half. I gained a lot of weight from birth control, pregnancy, stress...and just well, eating way to much. I find that this "new body" I'm in makes me feel weird and not like myself. It actually makes me feel sad and uncomfortable.

Before I go on crying about myself and throwing a pity party...it was my own fault that I got this way. It's not just the weight that has been bothering me it's just that I am not every being myself and doing things that really make me happy. I'm a fairly new mom with a little girl under the age of 2. I want more children but I'm so unhealthy. I work from home doing some medical work and art on my online store. I want to do more and I want to be more organized but I feel like my life has been spiraling downwards in a bad way. I'm tired all the time, I don't feel good about myself, I'm unorganized and I'm unhappy. I've tried to just go all out and change myself all at one time, just do all the things that I want but it only lasts for a week and then I'm back to my old ways. I try to diet, I try to be clean and organized and finish my goals, I try to be nice, I try to be perfect but it just wears me out. I try to do too much at one time and then feel overwhelmed.

So I say all of these things to say that I've created this blog to share with you my quest to change my life. Everything from weight, to attitude, to organization to reaching all my goals. I just want to be a better person inside and out.

I hope you enjoy this journey with me. I need all the encouragement that I can get.