Fall is magical.

I feel the change. I've been really not into blogging and I haven't been eating healthy like I was. I really had to just shut myself down these last two weeks and look at the bigger picture. I went to the doctor, I'm waiting on test results for various things. I want to change, I feel the change and so now I'm just enjoying life day by day. I'm taking a break from forcing a change every week and I'm just trying to enjoy moments with my family and taking up new hobbies. Pumpkin patches are very cheerful. Seeing laughter and sparkles makes you think differently.

Fall shoes, fall fashion, make me happy.

My new hobby is crocheting. I want to hand make all my Christmas gifts this year and so ... granny square blankets it is.

I've got a new job substituting and my old job has picked up as well. The money aspect of life is looking better, marriage is looking better, magical family moments are better...life is getting better. I am getting better.

Family Day!

Today was family day for J, P and I and we had an amazing time. For breakfast I forced down some yogurt and a slice of banana nut bread for breakfast with a huge glass of water. We then took P to the play place at the mall, did some walking around the mall for exercise and then went to the park.


I packed a lunch for all of us. It was just pb&j because I was in a hurry but it was on whole grain bread and a had a delicious fiber bar with it and a bottle of water. We had a lot of fun watching P play hard at the park. She loves other kids and being outside so it was a great experience. I love family time.


For dinner I made lean ground beef hamburgers with mushrooms and baked sliced potatoes with olive oil and Italian spices on them. It wasn't my healthiest day but I didn't undo anything that I've been working for so I call it a good day. I did get outside, get some fresh air and some exercise so that was good.

Tomorrow I've got to figure out what my weekly goal/change will be. See you tomorrow.

A day of accomplishment.

Breakfast was fresh blueberries and strawberries with yogurt and a whole grain banana nut muffin. I shared with P (my daughter) or course. She always mooches off of my plate. Anyway is was so filling, so fresh and so wonderful to have a balanced breakfast.


For lunch today I had my left over Thai chicken wraps. Um, can I just say I am in love with these wraps and I'm going to have to learn to make them myself. I had some orange jasmine green tea with a tiny bit of honey. My lunch was amazing.

This is a photo of P's lunch. Those are baby spinach leaves with light ranch dressing to dip them in. She ate everything but the turkey. She loves healthy food too.

Dinner was some left over "Easy Lasagna" with a fresh salad and whole grain bread. It was delish and filling.

Today I made a ton of accomplishments. I made a long to-do list and finished it all. I was very proud of myself. I've been reflecting on the last month today. I started this blog one month ago and I was thinking about all the past changes I have made. The changes that I have really stuck with is eating breakfast, eating more veggies and fruit and trying to get up earlier in the morning. I've really noticed that a lot o these things have become a habit for me. Especially getting more things done around my house. Doing all of these things to better my life have effected my attitude tremendously even my husband has noticed.

Though, I haven't lost very much weight I feel better, I know I'm a little healthier and I feel like this is a great start to my journey. My goal is to lose 8 pounds this next month with all of my changes. I can't wait to see what my end of the month post will be next month.

For now, good night.

New Things

This weekend we finally got a new car! Yay! My husband's parents helped us trade in our old one and pay for the rest on it. It was a huge blessing. I'm a lot less stressed about things. I also got a "newer" computer so I'll be able to blog during the day. I usually wait till night when my husband comes home and I can use his mac book. Anyhow, this post is short but tomorrow I'll have more.

My weekly change is to make a to-do list for every day and one for each week.

Lots of photos...sorry.

Alright, this post is a photo overload but I really wanted to document my day to see what I was eating. It made me make healthier choices but I was full all day which is great. For breakfast I had Kashi's blueberry and oat cereal with some banana slices. I loved it. It stayed crunchy for a long time.



I decided to take some vitamins today. I used to take them a lot but I stopped. There is a vitamin C and E, a mulit-vitamin, chromium picolinate and Q-10 or something like that. Sorry I don't feel like getting up and checking the bottle but you get the point.

I had a chicken taco salad for lunch. I used salsa as my dressing. P decided to share with me. I added a few multi-grain tortilla chips. Those chips are delicious. If you don't already try them go out and buy them now.




Alright so for dinner I made what I call "Easy Lasagna." I know it wasn't the healthiest choice for dinner but I'm on a strict budget and we were trying to just make meals from what we had. I did use ground turkey which is healthier. I made a sauce with canned tomatoes and canned tomato sauce with sliced mushrooms. I put in pasta and cottage cheese and I topped it with a little mixed colby jack cheese and then baked it.


We had a salad and some whole grain bread that I made the other day. It was yummy and filling and I feel good about myself. Today I got up at 8 a.m. I had half of the things that I wanted to get done, done by 12 noon. I was pleased about that. Today my husband gave me some bad news. Our "newer" nicer car that we love and really need has been in the shop for over 2 months. So today, he tells me that the problem is going to cost 2000 dollars to fix, it has something to do with the engine. Well, it sucks. We can't afford that, but we can't afford not to have a second car. We'll see what happens.

I really felt the change today. I'm glad I made that post last night.

A Clean house is a happy house.

My lunch today consisted of left over shrimp salad from yesterday and some teriyaki noodles with two servings of veggies and a big glass of water. I could NOT eat all of this. I actually shared it with my daughter. She likes to just sit by me and nibble off of what I'm eating. She's only 20 months old so she hasn't learned to eat off of her own plate yet. Nah, I'm teasing she just always wants what mommy wants.


My daughter and I also shared a snack around 3 today of cheese, crackers and turkey meat. She loved it but it was also very filling and we couldn't finish it all either. I ended up making chicken marsala for dinner but I didn't eat a lot of pasta, I mostly at the chicken. It was delicious. My husband, daughter and I ended up taking a walk in our neighborhood after we cleaned the kitchen. It was a lovely night.


I do want to talk about how much I accomplished today. I haven't been this productive in a long time. I cleaned my kitchen, dining room, bathroom and daughter's room AND I even did 2 loads of laundry and about 2 hours of ironing. I also did all of these things while my air conditioner was broken today. (It's fixed now..thank the LORD). I was so sweaty but I was sooo loving it. I kept thinking this is a great workout and a great way to sweat it all out.


I wanted to share a few shots of my clean kitchen and dining room. I feel that sharing a little more personal photos of my life will help you get to understand me a little better. I have chosen to not share my name or photos of what I look like because I want to be able to share my thoughts, struggles, goals etc more freely on this blog. I feel like if I put my name and face on it that I will hold back and I won't be able to really grow. You see, this blog isn't just about losing weight to me. It's about changing myself, my attitude, my soul and everything about myself. I've come to realize that a lot of why I struggle with my weight and this overwhelming feeling of being out of control of life is because I have not had control of my actions or my mind or my soul in years and years. The more I lost control of my will, mind, soul, heart, etc...the more I gain weight. I tend to want to control other things instead of myself and put that focus on everything but myself and the more I do that the less I focus on how I'm killing myself, I'm keeping a terribly filthy house and I'm making poor decisions as a mom, wife and friend. In every single way I want to change myself. For now, I'm taking it one day at a time but I really feel the difference.